Not a new self but a better self hopefully..

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim,
Salam 'alayk.

Alhamdulillah it's 21st of January and another year has passed. A one-year addition to my age has been marked yesterday (but according to Hijri calendar I have turned 25 since months ago). Nothing more that I want from Himー other than having all the past years' blessed by Him, and so do the upcoming. Plus, the endless forgiveness from Him, for everything this weak and poor servant of Him has done wrong..

And for the people I love, I pray that Allah gives the best of His rewards : good health, imaan, forgiveness, blessings, blessed rizq and His ever greatest place for all mu'min; Jannah. InsyaAllah..

Thanking everyone for all the warm wishes - may Allah grant all of them the same that    they wished Allah grant me ( or even better ) Ameen..

Feeling so blessed, I am married for nearly one month:) Indeed, it is a great blessing from Allah for sending a soleh husband to accompany my remaining journey in this dunya. InsyaAllah, deep in my heart I hope I could be the best wife to him, ameen..

Not to forget my Mum who has done a lot for me since I was in her womb.. and my father too.. Allah, rabbirhamhuma .. Rabbighfirli wa li walidayya warhamhuma kama robbayaani sogheero. Bless them with the best of health too.. Ameen. :')

p.s: May Allah make everything easy for my husband , Ameen.

November it is..

12 November 2013

Tuesday

Fare you well, LeBEST

Only 3 days left including today before the longgg school holidays start insya-Allah.

Alhamdulillah Allah has planned the best for me that I was offered to teach in one of the project schools, SMK LembaH Bidong or also known as LeBEST; Lembah Bidong Elite School of Terengganu.

Thursday, insyaAllah, will be my last day here. Technically, this is my 3rd school as a teacher. Still waiting to be called for my first placement as a qualified teacher , insyaAllah. (which I don't have any clue at all of where and when it would be.just keep praying..). Let's make our best du'a and pray hard that Allah places me in a good school ( good: easy for me travel everyday, easy for me to travel back home (mums and dads') and near to my *ehem* future husband soon insyaAllah. plus, a place where I find PEACE. Ameen.)

Please make du'a ye everyone.. :-) May Allah bless. 

Graduation Ceremony

Yosh. May Allah make my parents and me HAPPY and GRATEFUL on my upcoming graduation day in Serdang. Won't be going to the one in Canterbury - no financial budget .... 

Preparation

In the midst of preparing for something big. May Allah make everything smooth, easy and be blessed. May everyone be happy on this. Ameen3x ya Allah. 

A Special Thank You

A special 'thank you' for everything......

Congratulations!

Too many Wedding invitations on Facebook! =) To all the newlyweds and future grooms and brides, Barakallahulakum ! May Allah bless your marriage. May Allah ease everything for you. Have a barakah walima  insyaAllah... 

nfe

lb

Why I Keep Diaries....

Bismillah.
Salam Alayk to all.

Would like to share something today- why I write diaries? Some people like, but some prefer not to write what they feel or what they experience in their daily lives. I choose the former since to me, writing a diary provides me some time to reflect on myself,  what has happened to me,  the kinds of people that I met and the sorts. All in all, it is such a reflection on my LIFE.

However, based on what I always do, I found out that writing a diary could not be done without feelings. Things that I write should come deep from my heart otherwise I won't be able to write. Not saying that I write well without any flaws- I just simply write, as long as the words are coming from my heart. That is what makes my fingers work (read: write).

The time I write something in my diary is a time for me to talk to myself, and connect to Allah. This is because the moment I start writing, only my heart speaks and only Allah hears. I love to include my du'a / prayers too, in each of my entry - a lot. Hence when I look back and re-read them, I could feel that I am actually 'speaking; to Allah. That's what I treasure most as far as keeping a diary is concerned. A therapy indeed!

I sometimes forget what I have written in my diaries..Not saying that they are not from my heart, but maybe because I simply wrote without deep thinking. They are merely feelings that are turned into words.

A RELIEF.. Yes, I normally feel a bit relieved after  letting everything out of my chest - in a form of a diary entry. The problem gets lighter, the burden seems to disappear, sometimes. No one knows, no one listens to me. But what keeps me moving is - Allah is always up there, waiting for me to plead. Supplications. Du'a (in the form of written words)-A great way to get connected to Allah, other than solat and reciting Al-Quran. Alhamdulillah...

All in all, I am not urging you to write a diary, but I'm just sharing what I personally feel about keeping a diary. There are many other ways to keep you calm when the time is hard and to share the joyous moments in your lives. You choose you way. I have found mine. Talk to myself first (and Allah) through my writing then only I share with the ones I trust and love. A human being, I am.  :)



Disclaimer: This is based on my personal view, nothing to do with facts. =)
p.s: I don't write everyday.  I write in books/on paper that I could reach whenever I don't bring my diary/microsoft word.

nfes
lembah bidong

...

Allah is giving us.........

H A P P I N E S S

B L I S S

G O O D  H E A L T H

W E A L T H

etc..

and the underlying message is...

Allah is TESTING us...

What's in that handbag?

-memories at BCGS, Kent UK-

I'm falling in love

with this noble profession,

again.

I learn to start stepping

on the ground full of

HOPE

and

CHALLENGES.

I'm here

not to just tell them

A comes before B

and Z is the 26th letter

but

I come to

EDUCATE 

and at the same time

LEARN from them.

I used to be 'them'

And now

I am stepping

ahead.

Standing in front of them.

- yes, 

this teaches me the meaning of

RESPONSIBILITY.

I am here for a 

MISSION. 

So,

I should bring more than a

RED PEN

BLACK PEN

MARKER PEN

TIMETABLE

MINI NOTEBOOK

in my 

HANDBAG.

But,

I need endless

PASSION

and 

PATIENCE,

DETERMINATION

BELIEF

HOPE

PRAYER

and the sorts

in my 

HEART.

O God, 

Guide me all the way.....

16:00
Lembah Bidong
ema sensei

Make Us Grateful To You Ya Allah.....

Alhamdulillah... Alhamdulillah..Alhamdulillah...

Subhanallah, alhamdulillah, Allahu akbar..
O Allah.. Make me amongst Your most grateful servants ya Allah.
There's no word to describe how grateful I am to You.

For everything you have planned.
For everything You have granted me.
For everything You have given to me.
For everything You have decided for me.
For every tear that reminds me of You.
For every moment that brings me back to You.
For every test that makes me closer to You.
For every second of making me a servant of You.
For everything..Just everything..

Allah..
Thank You, all praises to You for the countless blessings....

In Surah Ibrahim, verse 34 Allah says..:

And He gave you of all that you asked for, and if you count the Blessings of Allâh, never will you be able to count them.

And in Surah Annahlu, verse 18, Allah says again..:

And if you would count the graces of Allâh, never could you be able to count them. Truly! Allâh is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful.

These are the answers. I tried to count all of His blessings on me but I failed. :')

Reflecting on my past, I should have been more grateful than I am today.
Thinking about what Allah has granted me, I should have become the most obedient servant of Him.
Realising how much sins I have committed, I do not deserve all these....

Nevertheless....

Allah is the Most Forgiving, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful, the Most Glorious, and after all, 

ALLAH knows BEST.

:')

Alhamdulillah tsumma alhamdulillah.

Panorama Before my BFG June 2012

Canterbury City Centre

City Centre

 The River Stour

 Westgate 

Looks like blackseed flower? (bunga habbatussauda' ke ni?)

At Westagte Gardens

*BFG: Back For Good

A longgg eventful +-6 years

Bismillah.
Alhamdulillah tsumma alhamdulillah...
All praises to Allah for everything,
Alhamdulillah 'ala kulli ni'mah.

Gratitude.
Nervousness.
Hardwork.
Tears.
Prayers.
Smiles.
Friends.
Studies.
Struggle.
Laziness.
Motivation.
Homesickness.

And many more.
All blended in.

And finally,
I am done with it-
B.Ed TESL.

16 July 2007-23 May 2013

Subhanallah.
It's a longg journey and I'm at the end of it, finally.
Thank You Allah.
Thanks to my parentsss.
Thanks to all my family members.
Thanks to all my lecturers.
Thanks to all my friends.
Thanks to all my special ones.

May Allah grant you His blessings herein and hereafter.
Alhamdulillah.

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currently working temporarily in Terengganu. Alhamdulillah.

On the threshold of....

Bismillah.
Salaaam to all.

First of all.
God, please forgive me when I whine.

Alhamdulillah.
Last January, upon knowing that I was going to start a 12-week yet-to-predict life in a new place,
I felt:

Nervous
Excited
Scared
Happy
Quite not ready

mixed feelings.....

Ala kulli haal, I HAVE TO FACE IT. No matter how..

And alhamdulillah.
It has been more than a month, and I have learnt quite a lot- generally about how a teacher's life is both at school and after school . (or to be precise how a PRACTICUM teacher's life is- I have to mention this because the term starting with 'P' here carries some difference to your title, to a large extent.) This is life~

Sometimes.
I feel good.
Sometimes.
I feel bad. Really bad that I sometimes I broke down.

Sometimes, I don't even feel good teaching the subject.
I have tried, but sometimes things just didn't turn out well.
NEVER MIND. I still have tomorrows, insya-Allah.

Sometimes, I have to 'abandon' the formality- Curriculum Specs, Syllabus etc.
and I believe in FLEXBILITY. flexibility.

_________________________________________________________________________________

WHY ENGLISH?

Why did I choose English?

-reflecting-

_________________________________________________________________________________

- seen at Fulham Cross Girls School & Language College, London -

___________________________________________________________________________

Again,

O Lord, please

Forgive me when I whine....

After all, this is just the threshold, I have yet to enter the real world....

ganbarimas! 

insya-Allah!

:La hawla wa la quwwata illa billah:

School and me so far

Bismillah,
Salam Alayk=)

Alhamdulillah. I'm now blending myself in the reality of  a teacher's life. So far so good, with so many things- good and bad, yes- but Alhamdulillah I'm now in the midst of the processes to make me stronger. Ya Qawiy, make me strong and keep me steadfast in this challenging field..... 

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Today, we had our cross-country race.

Here are some of the pictures of us.

the briefing and warm-up session

with them =) before leaving the stadium

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Nothing much to say

May Allah grant them good health, peaceful minds, and success in their upcoming test. 

Ameen.

p.s: Tahniah Rumah Hijau =)