Sujud Syukur

Salam..

Bismillah..

Alhamdulillah, thank you Allah for all your blessings.

I love my life I'm living now.

Hoping for a new brighter day, everyday.

Hope You will remain me in this path, path of truth, inshaAllah.

Thank you my dear friends.

Thank you my brothers and sisters.

Thank you my special one.

Thank you everyone.

Thank You for everything.

Salam terima kasih~

p/s: Cantik tak my new blog layout? hehe. ;)

Bila rasa tensi...

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (>_<)

tenang ke ek dgn cara tu utk lepaskan stress?

Allah................ (T_T)

rasa beza tak bile sebut ini?

Manusia biasa, mudah rasa marah.stress.tension.geram.sedih.

Macam2..

Apa boleh buat bila marah ya?

Zikrullah.

Ingat Allah.

Ingat dengan hati.

Sebut namaNya dgn lisan.

Dengar ayatNya or zikir dgn telinga.

Hayati dgn hati.

Banyak cara.

So Ema..tak payah la nk tensi2 sbb perkara sekecil tu.

*Tensi dgn paltalk nih. tak leh sokmo. Ayyoo.*

p/s: Bila tensi..selalu g singgah kat satu blog tu..tenang je rasa... :)

Singgah2

~Kadang rasa macam drowning...hmmm~

Bismillah

Salam..

Singgah blog jap.Taktau nak wat pe dah.Minggu ni rasa sgt penuh n tak brape tersusun sket.Huhu. Filing utk last week nye class seminggu pun tertangguh da.uwaa..ok2.by this thursday, setelkan filing n keje mne yg patut.Tak sngka plak this term bnyk groupwork..maka bertmbahlah komitmen. kalu individual bleh lagi wat ikut time sesuka hati.tp bile grupwork nih nk kene ikut kelapangan yg sesuai..adoyai~

Menulis entry time weng2.

Menjadikan blog tak berapa 'berisi' tp at least dapat luahkan ape yg otak tgh pk nih. huhu. sory ye pembaca yg terbaca entry nih. sekadar berceloteh melepaskan ke weng2an di pertengahan jalan jihad membaca buku.huhu.

Kalo adik2 TESL terbaca entry nih,meh cni nk habaq..especially utk geng2 cylcle 3..kita len sket ngn senior dulu2..diorang wat first yr di IPBA..Kita tak, dtg2 cni trus first yr..dengan mindset n perangai foundation yg masih bertapak kukuh dlm diri..huhu. Kan mse foundation kita blaja SS (social studies) kan? SS la yg kene bnyk bce, n kalu wat essay pun puas nk korek bhn nk support kite nye opinion.huhu.teringt zmn2 asgnment SS yg agak membunuh.*exaggerate sket*

Nak highlight nye..Tu SS..skg masuk first yr SS tak de da..tp muncul plak sepupu dia..ELTM n ULL. Eng lang teaching methodology n Understanding learners and the learning. 2 subjek ni la yg membantu membina neuron2 dlm otak kami skrg..huhu. Sedaya upaya cuba nk transform jadi ulat, tp tak jadi2. *sigh* ulat buku

Nk berkenalan ngn ELTM? ELTM ni pasal methodology, cara2 nk ngajar, handle class, deal with academic thingy sume tu la..teknik2 cara2 teaching la lbh kurang..Best jugak.SO far, klas ELTM yg plg best adalah pagi td..pasal Managing a successful classroom n ade micro teaching/carry out activity in class. Dapatla merasa berlakon jd cikgu jap.huhu.Susah rupanya nk ngaja nih.MAcam2 jnis students ade~

ULL plak, subjek yg sgt2 baru.bru 2 kali lecture..ala2 psychology tapi takdela sgt.basically pasal how people learn la..

Ha.tu la serba sket pasal course medic nih. eh silap. TESL.huhu.

Tak sabar nk siapkan sume asgment yg sentiasa menunggu.hantar satu dapat dua.nsb baik tesl tk bnyk exam.tp tu la, asgmnt juga killing me!huhu.

Chaiyok2..

Ingat ye, kita dtg cni bukan sekadar kejar akademik..Banyaaaaakkkk lagi benda lain yg perlu kita buat.Contoh:Ade usrah ke, joinlah..rugi sgt2 kalu tolak hidayah yg Allah campak..kita tak tau ade lagi tak peluang tu buat kita..huhh.

Tadi dapat mesej ustaz..Ustaz kata, mase undergrad ni la nk join pgram bnyk2..jika ade peluang..mse ni la nk bina peribadi, nk bina fikrah..maashaAllah! *diriku gimana ya??masih bnyk main2 lagi kok?emmm*

Betullah kata Imam Syahid Hassan Al-Banna...

"Alwaajibaatu aktharu minal Auqot"

"Kewajipan itu melebihi masa (yg ada)"

Moga2 setiap mse yg kita lalui diredahi Allah..tidak sia2 walaupun org nmpak mcm sia2. ;)

p/s: hari nih dapat kiriman dr jauh..happy ..thank you :)

InshaAllah...

Istimewa buatmu sahabatku sayang..

We all love you..

And most importantly..

Allah loves you, my Dear..

Everytime you feel like you cannot go on

You feel so lost

That you're so alone

All you see is night

And darkness all around

You feel so helpless

You can’t see which way to go

Don’t despair and never lose hope

Cause Allah is always by your side

Insha Allah

Insya Allah you’ll find your way

Everytime you can make one more mistake

You feel you can’t repent

And that its way too late

Your’re so confused, wrong decisions you have made

Haunt your mind and your heart is full of shame

Don’t despair and never lose hope

Cause Allah is always by your side

Insha Allah

Insya Allah you’ll find your way

Insha Allah

Insya Allah you’ll find your way

Turn to Allah

He’s never far away

Put your trust in Him

Raise your hands and pray

OOO Ya Allah

Guide my steps don’t let me go astray

You’re the only one that showed me the way,

Showed me the way

Insha Allah

Insya Allah we’ll find the way

(InshaAllah, by Maher Zain)

My Birthday 2010

Bismillah.

Salam.

Alhamdulillah..

Thanks a lot to my friends for all these..

May Allah bless You..Ameen.

-Kek from Ida Syarina-

-Hadiah and cards-

-Birthday Surprise-

-Kek from Nefiy-

-Kek from org London-

Happy Birthday to me,hehe. juga buat Ira and Miera..

Thank You kawan2 coursemates..

Thank You so much

Moga Allah meredhai segalanya.

Amin.

I care..

Relationship does not get closer by meetings but it is sweetened by thoughts..I care for you in my own way.

p/s: Tengok hadis tu (dlm gambar) ..jgn gmbar je.huhu

Pegang hatiku..

Bismillah.

Salam..

Alhamdulillah, syukur dgn satu anugerahNya yg sgt bernilai..PERASAAN. TAkleh byg hidup ni kalu takde perasaan..macam takde makna je. Nk rasa happy tak boleh..Nak rasa tersentuh tak boleh..Nak rasa kagum dan takjub dgn kebesaranNya pun tak boleh..Nak menghayati sesuatu, apatah lagi..Huhh..N nak rse sedih pun tak boleh.hehe..

Ada perasaan yg kita suka..Ada perasaan yg kalau boleh kita nak elak..ujub, takbur, riak, hasad dengki, marah, sakit hati..macam2..

Marah.

Sangat susah nak kawal..kalau terlalu cepat bertindak dlm kemarahan, maka bnyk buruk drp baiknya..Istighfar la cpt2 kalu rse marah mcm nk makan org je.huhu.Tapi, sangaaaat la susah nk tahan SABAR bile dlm keadaan marah sgt2..kan? Tahap sbr yg TINGGI je boleh handle KEMARAHAN.

Terasa hati.Sensitif.

Ni lagi satu hal. Kadang bukan niat kita nk terasa (tak sempat psg niat, dah terasa hati, cpt sgt.hehe) Itulah, kita naaaak sgt org jaga hati kita, supaya kita tak terasa, berkecil hati or bersedih..Tapi, pd mse yg sme, kita lupa nk jaga hati org...hmm..Cuba utk lupakan ssuatu jika ia menyakitkan..Belajar utk meMAAFkan..tak de untungnya kalau tak maafkan org..ape dpt? Tak tenang ade la..huhu

Sedih...

Yang ni ade dua jenis. Sedih yg memudharatkan..and sedih yg bermanfaat..kadang bila kite sedih, smpai nangis tak ingat dunia..mata plak yg sakit, kepala plak yg pening..tambah lagi satu masalah..kalu lebih2 menangis trhadap musibah yg menimpa pun, jgn smpai kita seolah2 menyalahkan tqdir Allah.meratap lebih2..merasakan hidup ini idak adil..Nauzubillah..Tu sedih tak baik.Sedih baik plak, sedih yg membuatkan kita berfikir..kita sedar ttg sesuatu..n membuakan kita berubah kpd yg lebih baik..kdg kita rasa down and sedih, then after we think, or turn to Allah..ketenangan itu kembali..Semangat itu subur balik..N hati kita basah balik dgn ingatan kpdaNya..Subhanallah, indah nya hidup ni kalu ade iman, agama dan tempat pergantungan yg sentiasa mendengar segala rintihan kita kan? Alhamdulillah moga dikekalkan dlm Iman, keyakinan yg tak pernah goyah..amin..

Gembira..

Yg ni pun ade 2 jenis..Gembira yg boleh melalaikan, dan gembira yg boleh mengingatkan kita padaNya..Time Allah bg nikmat tu, ha, gembiralah kalu rasa nk gembira but.....still kene kembalikan segal kesyukuran padaNya..dpt tiket nk blik Msia, happy bukan main. Mana dtg sume tu? Kalu Allah tak bg rezeki, takdenye Gov nk masukkan elaun bg kita duit, boleh beli tiket tu. Kalu Allah tak mudahkan cara, susah gak nk deal ngn Airlines..huhu.. Maka biasa2kanlah berterima kasih padaNya..Rasa syukur dlm hati yg dihayati, lebih bermakna dr lafaz syukur di bibir yg hanya sekadar lafaz tnpa pengahayatan..Lazimilah menyebut Alhamdulillah dari hati..

" Dan Dia memberinya rezeki dari arah yang tidak disangka-sangka. Dan barang siapa bertawakkal kepada Allah, nescaya Allah akan mencukupkan (keperluan)nya. Sesungguhnya Allah melaksanakan urusanNya. Sungguh, Allah telah mengadakan ketentuan bagi setiap sesuatu"

(At-Talaq: 3)

Usaha.Yaqin.Doa.Tawakkal.

Mendalam makna semua ni. Usaha perlu ada, pd mse yg sme, yakin yg Allah dah tetapkan yg terbaik.namun tak salah jika kita meminta dariNya..

Semoga Allah pelihara hati2 kita semua..ameen..

p/s: Bercakap atas pengalaman diri je..Peringatan utk diri ini n semua..

Cukup kuatkah aku..?

Untukmu Mujahidah Sejati..



Allah, from You I seek help and ask for strength.. (T_T)

Allahu Yassir!

Bismillah.

Salam..

I'm taking a break now! Hehe..

Tapi rasanya bnyk je 'breaks' sbl2 nih..huhu

Hari ni hari ke3 klas, Term baru..Best..dapat esaimen baru.huhu.Esaimen lame pun, still waiting in the list.tu la, sape suruh tak siapkan terus?wat sket2..then stop jap..pastu nk start balik, dah susah..huk huk.Pape pun, kene setelkan jugak! Jumaat nih present..wish me luck! 20 Jan ni anta portfolio (essays yg beribu words tu belum start!nk letak ape dlm fail?uwaaa..).cuak.May Allah ease the way.Ameen..tadi dpt esaimen LAW..wow! menarikk.;) praying hard that i can do my best.ameen..

Tadi pegi tgk pantomime Peter Pan kat Marlowe Theatre Arena..Dekat Sainsbury dekat2 cni je..Bukan g as in individual, tp ikut course group, with one lecturer..hmm..performance best la jugak..ade benda yg boleh di apply utk staging drama for CD module..tp obviously ade jugakla benda yg tak brape best, lagi2 it's an original pantomime in the UK..Cuci mata la, especially budak2 laki..Ni lah antara cabaran TESL..huhu..and ade sumthing yg menyedihkan td..em, maybe sbb diri ni sendiri tak cukup kuat kot...tak ckup ikhtiar utk sstu yang penting..takpelah, moga2 diri ni lebih kuat in the future..

Hari nih jugak dapat results utk first esaimen kt cni..huhh..bnyk lagi kene improve...results: rahsia.jgn tanya.hehe..tp pape2 pun, alhamdulillah, syukur padaNya.. Kene usaha utk next2 esaimen..jgn risau, bnyk lagi..uwaaa..huhu. senyum. :)

Semalam..sambut birthday Ira, one of my best friends, my housemate..

She's 21 now! Wow! Dah besar..hehe.

Moga Allah panjangkan usia Ira dengan berkat berpanjangan dalam hidup..Moga Allah kabulkan segala yang baik bagi Ira..Moga Allah cepat2kan jodoh Ira dgn lelaki terpilih yg beriman..Ameen..*sume tak sabar nk tgk Ira kawin.hik hik.*

Ucapan khas n istimewa drp My Mum buat Ira:

"selamat Hari Lahir..Moga panjang umur murah rezeki..Belajar molek2.. :)"

"Anak Ma pun dah tak lama..hehe.." sempat lagi ye Ma! ;)

Semalam jugak, dah berjaya beli tiket utk balik summer.Alhamdulillah. InshaAllah akan terbang balik ke Malaysia 5 July 2010, and balik cni 21 Sep 2010..Semoga Allah permudahkan..Ameen..

Em, Alhamdulillah, dlm sibuk2 ngn hal2 tu, dah selamat jawab TEST LAW tadi..alhamdulillah, thank you atas tunjuk ajar kawan2 Group 1 and tak lupe kawan2 sekelas.:)

And hari ni, pegi kelas smbil mandi snow..sejuk..:) tapi suke tgk snow yg light je hari nih.. :)

Guess I'm enjoying my life now..Walaupun selalu weng2 ngn homesick and keje yg bertimbun (kes bnyk tangguh kot)..but still, rasa syukur that I'm still standing. Thank You Allah..

Ok, back to work! Pray for me! (^_^)/

p/s: Tak sabar sangat2 nak balik jumpa family.. (T_T)

Sabar Ema!

First Day of Term 2

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

In the Name of Allah the most Gracious, the most Merciful..

As-Salamualaikum..

Alhamdulillah, I have just came back from ELTM (Eng. Lang. Teaching Methodology) Class..Thank God, everything went well just now, though I felt a bit nervous in the beginning, don't know why.hehe. Maybe because of the one-month break that makes me feel quite awkward of getting up early and expose myself to chilly morning of winter..grrrrr..It's 0 degree celcius, if not lower than that. Pheeww! Well, I enjoyed today's session with Abg John. ;)

Something worth noting here is what had happened just now, on our way back home.. It's not far from the uni area, just along the way near to the playground at Falala Way..While Weda, Miera and me were walking down the road, a group of men in the moving car screamed at us, saying out loud "Al-Qaeda!". We were quite shocked hearing that yet stayed cool and calm, of being worried that something worse might happen. But Alhamdulillah since the car was on the road, in the midst of the traffic, nothing consequently took place.

And this reminds me of some other similar incidence happened to my girl friends. One, being tortured by being asked with this question: Hey why are you wearing those shit on your head? Two, Don't you feel ashamed wearing that hideous thing on your head? I smiled when my friend replied, "No, I'm proud of it!" :) And last night, someone or maybe one group of men, threw the snow ball onto my friend's window on the first floor. And they kept calling from the outside,3 Hamill, get out!!! Luckily, the decision of being ignorant and keeping silent in the room chased them away. Huhhh. This is only the beginning, I think. But why?

Is it because we are muslims, we are treated like that? Is it because we wear scarf or hijab, we are being discriminated and tortured? It's worth to note here that I'm not making a general statement, putting the blame on all English. It's a big NO, of course. There are many of them who are very nice to us, treating us like they do to others, or in other words, treating us as human beings, regardless who we are. Good. I'm proud of them. I was taught not to stereotype, but I'm aware that everyone in this world has a complete freedom of saying what they think it's worth saying.

I'm now living in a reality. A real world. And this is only a small test from Him, as compared to those or I should say Muslims in the world where hardly we could find PEACE..Astaghfirullah. May Allah reward them with His Jannah/Heaven and His endless blessings, as a payment of their patience and jihad. Ameen.

~..Sometimes I feel insecure, but I know..Allah is always with us, InshaAllah..~

p/s 1: Sekarang duk kecoh2 isu penggunaan nama Allah dalam Herald Catholic la..kes bakar gereja la..Mungkin semua ini propaganda? Wallahua'lam..

p/s 2: Mariam and Nour, are you reading this? May Allah shower His blessings on you and bless both of you with His care..I'm proud of you, sisters! :)

~Winter Photoshoots~

Salam..

Here are some pictures of winter in Canterbury for my friends out there!

"Do you not see that Allah drives clouds? Then He brings them together, then He makes them into a mass, and you see the rain emerge from within it. And He sends down from the sky, mountains [of clouds] within which is hail, and He strikes with it whom He wills and averts it from whom He wills. The flash of its lightening almost takes away the eyesight."

"Tidakkah engkau melihat bahawa Allah menjadikan awan bergerak perlahan, kemudian mengumpulkannya, kemudian menjadikannya bertompok-tompok, lalu engkau lihat hujan keluar dari celah-celahnya, dan Dia juga menurunkan butiran-butiran ais dari langit, (yaitu) dari (gumpalan-gumpalan awan seperti) gunung-gunung , maka ditimpakanNya (butiran-butiran ais) itu kepada sesiapa yang Dia kehendaki dan dihindarkanNya dari siapa yang Dia kehendaki. Kilauan kilatnya hampir-hampir menghilangkan penglihatan"

(An-Nur 24:43)

~Salju..Ais~

~featuring my friends..~

~With our first Snowman and Snowgirl~

~Tasik..Lapisan ais yang keras on the surface~

~Playground, On our way to Uni~

~Kat Uni.. tasik CCCU~

That's all for now..

Snow:Subhanallah! ^^

The Return

Bismillah..

Salam..

Rasa lemah

Jiwa

Hati

Perasaan

Mahu kembali

Mahu kekuatan

Mahu keberanian

Mahu belajar

Mahu perbaiki

Motivasi

Ukhuwwah

Biah

Tarbiyyah

Tazkiyah Nafs

Taqarrub ilaih

Semua jadi penguat

Asyyiddah

Semuanya fitnah

Buatku lemah

Sesungguhnya diri ini masih bertatih

Dalam jalan yang terhampar duri

Namun menjanjikan madu kemanisan

Kuingin motivasi dariMu Rabb...

(T_T)

Sesuci Putihnya Salju

Khas buatmu..

Soal hati
sukar untuk dimengertikan
kadang hati dipermainkan
walaupun ia bukan mainan
hati
sesuatu yang zahir
juga ma'nawi
tempat bahagia bertapak
juga tempat luka tersimpan
bisa berbolak-balik
bisa menjadi ragu-ragu
bisa menjadi keras,
sekeras batu
bisa menjadi lembut,
selembut sutera
bisa menjadi kering,
tandus tidak basah
hati
sungguh sukar dimengerti
biar duka tersimpan
namun izinkan suka menjadi teman
biar sakit dirasa
namun biar ada ubat untuknya
sekali dikotori
masih ada penawarnnya
hati
di situ niat tersimpan
di situ ikhlas bermukim
di situ kemanisan iman dirasa
hitamnya hati
bagaimana bisa kembali putih
menjadi sesuci salju....
yang hitam
lontar ke lubuk iktibar
yang putih
serapkan sinar cahaya..

Semoga bahagia menjadi milikmu, sahabatku..
Entri pertama untuk 2010 (01:02 , 4 Jan 2010)
Kat luar tgh snow..subhanallah..Mendamba hati sesuci putihnya salju.. T_T