Restart Button....

Assalamualaikum and Hi,

It's been agesssss since I last wrote something here. Life has been different, a lot . I am now a working mom with 3 lil boys.

Should restart blogging ( I'm active on FB though) I supposed - ranting on daily life. Something that could be useful (hopefully) if not for others, maybe for the future ''me' or my own kids (I might write things about them, a lot).

Time passes . People say the past has died and the future is yet to be born. So hopefully I could write about the present here. Some days (or many of the days) would be missed by the future me...

See. I have never imagined to live my life as today. Subhaanallah. Sometimes I try to recall the past, but unfortunately some have gone , vanished , deleted from my memory - okay with the bad ones but good and sweet memories should remain. Sob sob sob..

Ahh. Tonight I suddenly miss Canterbury. Hmm. Always, to be honest.

....

2018.

A Fresh, New Chapter

Bismillah, walhamdulillah, 

Today is 28th January 2014, and alhamdulillah I have become a wife to a loving husband for 1 month. May our marriage last till our last breath and may Allah keep us together in Jannah too, ameen ya Allah. 

It's been nearly a month staying in Japan , accompanying Mr. Husband who is in the midst of his final exams and final year research. Insya-Allah may Allah make everything smooth and easy for him, ameen..

Becoming a wife for a month, I have learnt a lot yet loadssss awaiting to be learnt- In fact, I am learning about many things day by day, including about my husband. Getting to know him better- what he likes and what he doesn't etc. 

Staying in Japan is indeed a great experience. I am amazed with the Japanese people's good attitude and politeness. I love to hear the words ending with "mas/masu" a lot each time I go to public places like konbini (just like 7Eleven), restaurants, cafes or shops here (You will hear these "masu" words upon walking into the places , while paying at the cashier and upon leaving). Among the little that I understand is "arigatou gozaimasu" which means "Thank You". haha. I really feel like a stranger/ghuraba' being in the midst of people who communicate using Nihon go (including the times when Mr. Husband converses with his friends). But alhamdulillah, translation is always there when required. Thanks to those who always understand the uneasiness of "keeping silent with constant smile"- just because I don't have the language--- they translated the words/sentences for me! :) Ala kulli haal, alhamdulillah. It helps me to use my little skills of understanding some words through the context. Sometimes my guesses are right. Sometimes. =D

Not going to mention about the modern technology and the efficient services here, but I'd love to share another thing that amazed me a lot. I am not quite sure but when I asked Mr. Husband he said it is common to leave the house safely unlocked. Wow! I'm sure this is realllly rare in Malaysia or even UK. Husband said "org jepun buat keje sndiri je tak kisah hal org lain." huhu. In a way, bagus juga ye tak kisah hal orang. hehe. 

And yes, I am glad to see strong relationship/ukhuwwah among Malaysians here. And I'm learning the ways of how ikhwah/guys make their friendship stronger- the way they gurau senda etc - reaaally different to what girls always do. :D But alhamdulillah,from what I have seen so far, they are all really helpful and easy-going. :) May Allah bless them all.

That's all for now. Below are some photos of this fresh, new chapter of my life... Assalam..

5 January 2014 , Niigata.
 Introducing Mr. Husband. :)

28 Dec 2013, The Big Day. Besut.
Wedding gifts (which I had not any chance to open before leaving  huhu). Jazakumullahu khaira, many thanks!

1st January 2014, Toyama.
Dinner. Some of the girls Amira, Munirah, Yasmin, Mazni and me...

18 Jan 2014, University of Toyama.
Soubetsukai / Farewell Party for the Final Year students.

The Meaning of Life

A beautiful poem with a deep meaning... Subhanallah.
Source: http://zegasi.deviantart.com/art/PLEASE-READ-THE-MEANING-OF-LIFE-416656936
Video:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7d16CpWp-ok

What are we doing here and where are we going to go
It's like we just woke up one morning and then it's welcome to the show.
Don't ask any questions just go with the flow,
Make as much money as you can and try your best not to get broke,
Copy everything you see on the tv From the hairstyles to the clothes
And don't think too often just do exactly as your told
And if You ever get confused then turn towards the alcohol.
You still hear your thoughts? then just turn up the radio,
As you learn to live a lifestyle of drugs,sex and rock n roll.

But in all honesty I just need to know,
Is there more to the cycle than growing and getting old,
Living and dying just to leave behind a happy home,
And a whole lot of property that somebody else is going to own.
I just really need to know before the caskets closed,
Cause I'm not willing to gamble with my soul nor am I ready to take any chances,
These are just simple life questions and I'm just searching for some answers,
Like what are we doing here and what is our purpose,
How did we get here and who made us so perfect,
And what happens once we go or is this world all really worth it,
Questions we don't answer because apparently we don't really have to
There's no purpose to this life and our existence merely natural?
In that case please let me ask you.

Did you create yourself or was it somebody else that had fashioned you?
Because you're a being that's impeccable faultless and unparalleled.
You are a product of supreme intelligence and I'm merely being rational,
For there isn't a camera on this earth that can come close to the human eye
Nor a computer that can compete alongside the human mind
And If the whole world was to come together we wouldn't be able to create a single fly
So many signs yet we still deny
As science tries to justify that all this could come from none
When It's a simple sum Zero plus zero plus zero cannot possibly ever give you one.
So from where did all this order come?
For everything has it's origins, a maker, a creator of it's own
I mean the only reason your reading this text is because somebody had to press upload
So you can believe in the Big Bang but I'd rather Believe in He who caused it to explode.
Allah, The creator of the universe along with every single soul
The Everliving, the Master the only one who is in control
Unlike his creation, beyond our imagination And NO -
He's not a man nor has he any partners in association,
He's on his own.

And neither did He ever leave us alone.
Just like every manufacturer he left us with an instruction manual,
The Quran and Islam and I'm sorry to jump to conclusions but it's the only one possible.
The only definition of God as the One and Only, supreme being its logical,
A book with zero contradictions and miracles that are both scientific and historical.
All revealed over 1400 years ago
Like the detailed description of the human embryo
To the mountains as pegs holding firm the earth below
and the two seas that don't mix in a complete separate flow
to the planets in orbit alternating night and day as they stay in float
The expansion of the Universe and the creation of everything from H20
to the stories of the past and the preservation of Pharaoh.
To identifying the lowest point in the land where Persia defeated Rome
The gushing fluid that created man in the glands between the ribs and the backbone.
And not a word has changed it's still the same
So please explain how all this was known..... over 1400 years ago?
To a man who couldn't read or write, as he would recite what the angel spoke.
And if you still don't believe please come up with something that's even close.
But you can't.

So we took God as a mockery and his Messengers as a joke
Dismissed his scriptures as legends and tales of the ancient folk.
As we live life according to our whims, desires and hopes
Saying this life is the only home we will ever know
We will live then die and simply turn to bones YOLO.
Correction: After the grass dies the rain arrives it re-grows
And Allah promises to do the same thing to your very soul
And bring you back from your very fingertips to your toes.
As the All Seeing Supreme Being watches us so close
as we are surely being tested.

In Our wealth, our health, our self and everything that we've been blessed with
So believe for we will surely be resurrected.
And be brought to Lord in account for every single deed
As he hands us our books and orders us to "READ!"
From the bad to the good and everything in between
You, yourself are sufficient for your own accountability
So Don't be mad at me, Your Lord says... YOU WERE THE ONE WHO THOUGHT HE WOULDN'T COME
BACK TO ME I gave you a whole life long to search after
me But you were busy chasing all that which was
temporary So read, and glad tidings to all those who believed,
but if you disbelieve,
READ And don't let that day be the first day you
find out what life really means. READ

Not a new self but a better self hopefully..

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim,
Salam 'alayk.

Alhamdulillah it's 21st of January and another year has passed. A one-year addition to my age has been marked yesterday (but according to Hijri calendar I have turned 25 since months ago). Nothing more that I want from Himー other than having all the past years' blessed by Him, and so do the upcoming. Plus, the endless forgiveness from Him, for everything this weak and poor servant of Him has done wrong..

And for the people I love, I pray that Allah gives the best of His rewards : good health, imaan, forgiveness, blessings, blessed rizq and His ever greatest place for all mu'min; Jannah. InsyaAllah..

Thanking everyone for all the warm wishes - may Allah grant all of them the same that    they wished Allah grant me ( or even better ) Ameen..

Feeling so blessed, I am married for nearly one month:) Indeed, it is a great blessing from Allah for sending a soleh husband to accompany my remaining journey in this dunya. InsyaAllah, deep in my heart I hope I could be the best wife to him, ameen..

Not to forget my Mum who has done a lot for me since I was in her womb.. and my father too.. Allah, rabbirhamhuma .. Rabbighfirli wa li walidayya warhamhuma kama robbayaani sogheero. Bless them with the best of health too.. Ameen. :')

p.s: May Allah make everything easy for my husband , Ameen.

November it is..

12 November 2013

Tuesday

Fare you well, LeBEST

Only 3 days left including today before the longgg school holidays start insya-Allah.

Alhamdulillah Allah has planned the best for me that I was offered to teach in one of the project schools, SMK LembaH Bidong or also known as LeBEST; Lembah Bidong Elite School of Terengganu.

Thursday, insyaAllah, will be my last day here. Technically, this is my 3rd school as a teacher. Still waiting to be called for my first placement as a qualified teacher , insyaAllah. (which I don't have any clue at all of where and when it would be.just keep praying..). Let's make our best du'a and pray hard that Allah places me in a good school ( good: easy for me travel everyday, easy for me to travel back home (mums and dads') and near to my *ehem* future husband soon insyaAllah. plus, a place where I find PEACE. Ameen.)

Please make du'a ye everyone.. :-) May Allah bless. 

Graduation Ceremony

Yosh. May Allah make my parents and me HAPPY and GRATEFUL on my upcoming graduation day in Serdang. Won't be going to the one in Canterbury - no financial budget .... 

Preparation

In the midst of preparing for something big. May Allah make everything smooth, easy and be blessed. May everyone be happy on this. Ameen3x ya Allah. 

A Special Thank You

A special 'thank you' for everything......

Congratulations!

Too many Wedding invitations on Facebook! =) To all the newlyweds and future grooms and brides, Barakallahulakum ! May Allah bless your marriage. May Allah ease everything for you. Have a barakah walima  insyaAllah... 

nfe

lb

Why I Keep Diaries....

Bismillah.
Salam Alayk to all.

Would like to share something today- why I write diaries? Some people like, but some prefer not to write what they feel or what they experience in their daily lives. I choose the former since to me, writing a diary provides me some time to reflect on myself,  what has happened to me,  the kinds of people that I met and the sorts. All in all, it is such a reflection on my LIFE.

However, based on what I always do, I found out that writing a diary could not be done without feelings. Things that I write should come deep from my heart otherwise I won't be able to write. Not saying that I write well without any flaws- I just simply write, as long as the words are coming from my heart. That is what makes my fingers work (read: write).

The time I write something in my diary is a time for me to talk to myself, and connect to Allah. This is because the moment I start writing, only my heart speaks and only Allah hears. I love to include my du'a / prayers too, in each of my entry - a lot. Hence when I look back and re-read them, I could feel that I am actually 'speaking; to Allah. That's what I treasure most as far as keeping a diary is concerned. A therapy indeed!

I sometimes forget what I have written in my diaries..Not saying that they are not from my heart, but maybe because I simply wrote without deep thinking. They are merely feelings that are turned into words.

A RELIEF.. Yes, I normally feel a bit relieved after  letting everything out of my chest - in a form of a diary entry. The problem gets lighter, the burden seems to disappear, sometimes. No one knows, no one listens to me. But what keeps me moving is - Allah is always up there, waiting for me to plead. Supplications. Du'a (in the form of written words)-A great way to get connected to Allah, other than solat and reciting Al-Quran. Alhamdulillah...

All in all, I am not urging you to write a diary, but I'm just sharing what I personally feel about keeping a diary. There are many other ways to keep you calm when the time is hard and to share the joyous moments in your lives. You choose you way. I have found mine. Talk to myself first (and Allah) through my writing then only I share with the ones I trust and love. A human being, I am.  :)



Disclaimer: This is based on my personal view, nothing to do with facts. =)
p.s: I don't write everyday.  I write in books/on paper that I could reach whenever I don't bring my diary/microsoft word.

nfes
lembah bidong

...

Allah is giving us.........

H A P P I N E S S

B L I S S

G O O D  H E A L T H

W E A L T H

etc..

and the underlying message is...

Allah is TESTING us...

What's in that handbag?

-memories at BCGS, Kent UK-

I'm falling in love

with this noble profession,

again.

I learn to start stepping

on the ground full of

HOPE

and

CHALLENGES.

I'm here

not to just tell them

A comes before B

and Z is the 26th letter

but

I come to

EDUCATE 

and at the same time

LEARN from them.

I used to be 'them'

And now

I am stepping

ahead.

Standing in front of them.

- yes, 

this teaches me the meaning of

RESPONSIBILITY.

I am here for a 

MISSION. 

So,

I should bring more than a

RED PEN

BLACK PEN

MARKER PEN

TIMETABLE

MINI NOTEBOOK

in my 

HANDBAG.

But,

I need endless

PASSION

and 

PATIENCE,

DETERMINATION

BELIEF

HOPE

PRAYER

and the sorts

in my 

HEART.

O God, 

Guide me all the way.....

16:00
Lembah Bidong
ema sensei

Make Us Grateful To You Ya Allah.....

Alhamdulillah... Alhamdulillah..Alhamdulillah...

Subhanallah, alhamdulillah, Allahu akbar..
O Allah.. Make me amongst Your most grateful servants ya Allah.
There's no word to describe how grateful I am to You.

For everything you have planned.
For everything You have granted me.
For everything You have given to me.
For everything You have decided for me.
For every tear that reminds me of You.
For every moment that brings me back to You.
For every test that makes me closer to You.
For every second of making me a servant of You.
For everything..Just everything..

Allah..
Thank You, all praises to You for the countless blessings....

In Surah Ibrahim, verse 34 Allah says..:

And He gave you of all that you asked for, and if you count the Blessings of Allâh, never will you be able to count them.

And in Surah Annahlu, verse 18, Allah says again..:

And if you would count the graces of Allâh, never could you be able to count them. Truly! Allâh is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful.

These are the answers. I tried to count all of His blessings on me but I failed. :')

Reflecting on my past, I should have been more grateful than I am today.
Thinking about what Allah has granted me, I should have become the most obedient servant of Him.
Realising how much sins I have committed, I do not deserve all these....

Nevertheless....

Allah is the Most Forgiving, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful, the Most Glorious, and after all, 

ALLAH knows BEST.

:')

Alhamdulillah tsumma alhamdulillah.

Panorama Before my BFG June 2012

Canterbury City Centre

City Centre

 The River Stour

 Westgate 

Looks like blackseed flower? (bunga habbatussauda' ke ni?)

At Westagte Gardens

*BFG: Back For Good

A longgg eventful +-6 years

Bismillah.
Alhamdulillah tsumma alhamdulillah...
All praises to Allah for everything,
Alhamdulillah 'ala kulli ni'mah.

Gratitude.
Nervousness.
Hardwork.
Tears.
Prayers.
Smiles.
Friends.
Studies.
Struggle.
Laziness.
Motivation.
Homesickness.

And many more.
All blended in.

And finally,
I am done with it-
B.Ed TESL.

16 July 2007-23 May 2013

Subhanallah.
It's a longg journey and I'm at the end of it, finally.
Thank You Allah.
Thanks to my parentsss.
Thanks to all my family members.
Thanks to all my lecturers.
Thanks to all my friends.
Thanks to all my special ones.

May Allah grant you His blessings herein and hereafter.
Alhamdulillah.

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currently working temporarily in Terengganu. Alhamdulillah.

On the threshold of....

Bismillah.
Salaaam to all.

First of all.
God, please forgive me when I whine.

Alhamdulillah.
Last January, upon knowing that I was going to start a 12-week yet-to-predict life in a new place,
I felt:

Nervous
Excited
Scared
Happy
Quite not ready

mixed feelings.....

Ala kulli haal, I HAVE TO FACE IT. No matter how..

And alhamdulillah.
It has been more than a month, and I have learnt quite a lot- generally about how a teacher's life is both at school and after school . (or to be precise how a PRACTICUM teacher's life is- I have to mention this because the term starting with 'P' here carries some difference to your title, to a large extent.) This is life~

Sometimes.
I feel good.
Sometimes.
I feel bad. Really bad that I sometimes I broke down.

Sometimes, I don't even feel good teaching the subject.
I have tried, but sometimes things just didn't turn out well.
NEVER MIND. I still have tomorrows, insya-Allah.

Sometimes, I have to 'abandon' the formality- Curriculum Specs, Syllabus etc.
and I believe in FLEXBILITY. flexibility.

_________________________________________________________________________________

WHY ENGLISH?

Why did I choose English?

-reflecting-

_________________________________________________________________________________

- seen at Fulham Cross Girls School & Language College, London -

___________________________________________________________________________

Again,

O Lord, please

Forgive me when I whine....

After all, this is just the threshold, I have yet to enter the real world....

ganbarimas! 

insya-Allah!

:La hawla wa la quwwata illa billah:

School and me so far

Bismillah,
Salam Alayk=)

Alhamdulillah. I'm now blending myself in the reality of  a teacher's life. So far so good, with so many things- good and bad, yes- but Alhamdulillah I'm now in the midst of the processes to make me stronger. Ya Qawiy, make me strong and keep me steadfast in this challenging field..... 

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Today, we had our cross-country race.

Here are some of the pictures of us.

the briefing and warm-up session

with them =) before leaving the stadium

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Nothing much to say

May Allah grant them good health, peaceful minds, and success in their upcoming test. 

Ameen.

p.s: Tahniah Rumah Hijau =)

Assalamualaykum =)

Alhamdulillah I am now in the midst of my 5-day 'mid-practicum briefing' in the college- This gives me a 1-week break from school.

Alhamdulillah, I have been in school for 4 weeks; indeed a critical period for me to just adapt myself with a lot of things- managing students, getting to know the teachers and staff, getting used to facing traffic jam, etc. Alhamdulillah, hopefully all will get better as time goes by.. 8 weeks to go , insyaAllah.

Alhamdulillah Allah has gifted our family with a new member, born on the day I left my kampung and came back to IPBA. Ahamdulillah Facebook allows me to see her from afar. =) But she is now having jaundice, insyaAllah may Allah heal..Allah is the BEST Healer..

Puteri Sofea with her little sister..

Puteriku Sayang,

Disebalik bersih wajah mu disebalik tabir diri mu 
Ada rahsia agung tersembunyi dalam diri 
Itulah sekeping hati yang takut pada ilahi 
Berpegang pada janji mengabdikan diri 

Malu mu mahkota yang tidak perlukan singgahsana 
Tapi ia berkuasa menjaga diri dan nama 
Tiada siapa yang akan boleh merampasnya 
Melainkan kau sendiri yang pergi menyerah diri 

Ketegasan mu umpama benteng negara dan agama 
Dari dirobohkan dan jua dari dibinasakannya 
Wahai puteriku sayang kau bunga terpelihara 
Mahligai syurga itulah tempatnya

It's a matter of TIME =)

Bismillah..walhamdulillah..=)

Sudah terlalu lama blog ini sunyi sepi tidak ber-update. Tiada sebab yang khusus untuk dinyatakan.=)

Alhamdulillah, life is getting much more interesting with lots of things going on. Alhamdulillah, Praise be to Allah for I have finished my studies in the UK, and now I'm back for good. Another semester left to finish my degree at Teacher Training Institute. (I'm doing a UK-Malaysia twinning programme). I was excited knowing that I am back to see my family and relatives in Malaysia tercinta, though it is undeniable that I doubt if I could go back to UK in the future.. All the good memories remain in my heart, with the hope that I could go back to that beautiful place with my loved ones in the future, ameen...

I am now in the midst of my final semester of my degree programme- getting ready and gearing up to start my life as a trainee teacher at a school in Kuala Lumpur. My practicum will begin in two day's time, Allahumma yassir wala tu'assir ya Kareem..Please make du'a for me and all of my coursemates.. (May Allah bless you and answer your du'a)

How time flies, subhanallah. I still remember the day I first arrived here- full of tears and fear, with a bit of excitement upon certain good things I found in this very place called IPBA. It was like 5 years back- 2007. Yesterday, we collected all the assignments we did over our Foundation years (July 2007-August 2009) from the B.ed Office. Subhanallah, walhamdulillah. La hawla wa la quwwata illa billah. Looking at those essays / coursework made me feel grateful to Allah for He is the One who gave me strength, patience and steadfastness to continue this jihad (study). I could not believe that I went through all the difficulties and the sorts upon achieving what I was expected to do. Though I'm not in the group of top scorers in my batch, I am still grateful that He gives me strength to continue this path... (Doing English is not really my first choice, but I love to be a teacher/pendidik)

Today we got our last semester's exam and assignment results. Alhamdulillah 'ala kulli hal. The lecturer in charge of  Examination Board  (who used to teach me 5years back) 'read' the results to me and said something to me before I left the room. "Ema, I'm still waiting for 'this' (showing something in her hand) from you". I just gave a smile, not knowing how to respond to that. =) And it was actually a wedding invitation card from a friend of mine. Insya-Allah, soon when the time comes, (which I don't even know yet) I will surely let you know , Ma'm. (Bisik hati).Allah knows best. =) Please make du'a. 

Sometimes we need our own 'wait time' to look back and forward- to reflect and to plan. But one thing for sure that we need to bear in mind is - Allah is the BEST PLANNER and DOER. Allah boleh buat apa saja untuk hamba-Nya. Most of the time, Allah pleases us with things that we don't even ask for. Subhanallah, Walhamdulillah. So who are we to have su'u dzhon (buruk sangka) to Allah. Leaving things to Allah, redha , and keep putting faith and trust in Him really makes our days blissful Insya-Allah.. (This applies to anything we face and we do in this temporary life). 

May Allah of us be blessed, ameen. =)

Faizatul,

ASRAMA IPBA.

p.s: Pardon my non-quality style of writing. I hope the message is successfully delivered and bermanfaat. 

...Lelah

Nearly there.

Bi iznillah (By Allah's will)

Make me strong,

please,

My Lord.

Allah

Allah

Allah

---------------------------------

Hasbunallah wani'mal wakeel...

Ilahi Rabbi...

Birahmatika astagheeth..

T_T

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Ku milikMu (I'm Yours)

Maher Zain's song. Ku milikMu (I'm Yours)

Kuberdoa dengan jiwa dan tubuhku

Setiap hari sepanjang hidupku dengan nafasku

Aku berjanji padaMu untuk hidup hanya untukMu

O Allah

Kau bangkitkan jiwaku cahayaMu terangi hatiku

Hidupku ku persembahkan padaMu

Ku milikMu..ku milikMu..

Kini kutahu rasanya hidup dalam cahaya kasihMu

Kini kutahu rasanya menemukan damai di hati

Seandainya semua tahu indahnya mengabdi padaMu

Seandainya semua tahu kasihMu lepaskan belenggu

Bebasknku, kuatkanku..

O Allah kubersyukur padaMu

Walau kata tak sanggup ungkapkan

Kau buatku mampu lawan keraguan

Dan tegar hadapi tentangan

Hanya Kau sanggup bangkitkan jiwaku

CahayaMu terangi hatiku

Dan hidupku ku persembahkan padaMu

Ku milikMu..ku milikMu..

*

Cinta hidup siang malam hatta doa

semua untukMu

Dan tiada satu pun dapat bersaing denganMu di hatiku..

Allah ambil satu, Allah bagi LEBIH..

Bismillah,
Alhamdulillah.

Allah bersifat dengan sifat Ar-Rahman dan Ar-Rahim. Maha Pemurah dan Maha Pengasihani.
Alhamdulillah, Allah izin, masih berbaki lebih kurang 2 bulan sebelum menamatkan pengajian di bumi Allah ini. Alhamdulillah tsumma alhamdulillah. Moga Allah mudahkan urusan-urusan yang masih menuntut hak.

Allah izin, tahun terakhir ini banyak ujian yang cukup manis. Pertama,Allah tarik nikmat 'kesihatan laptop' ku. =) Mungkin sebab nikmat tu tak digunakan betul-betul untuk buat kerja yang Allah redha.. asyik fesbuk saja agaknya =P Laptop yang berusia hampir 5 tahun, hadiah daripada insan yang cukup istimewa , Mama. Banyak jasa laptop ACER itu, banyak esaimen yang telah berjaya disiapkan hasil bantuannya, dengan izin Allah, Alhamdulillah..

Aku hanyalah manusia dari zaman dinosor yang hidup di zaman canggih =D

Dalam laptop tu hanya ada program2 asas seperti Microsoft Office (dan yang diguna hanyalah Mic Word dan Powerpoint), Skype , Paltalk dan Movie Maker. Selain untuk surf internet (FB dll), laptop tu memang berbakti sepenuhnya untuk siapkan esaimen.

Tiada movie.
Ada 2 games: Vocabulary. haha. Boring bagi sesetengah orang. =P
Kerana tuannya tidak minat movie. juga tidak minat games.

Problem?

Problem laptop kesayangan ku adalah:

Virus kot.
dan tak cukup memory kot.
Entahlah.
Jangan ditanya pada manusia dari zaman dinosor ini =P
Sudah usaha dirawat, tapi sakit kembali.
Mengambil jalan mudah untuk tidak merawatnya lagi, sebaliknya hanya menggunakan komputer2 di universiti lab atau library...
Stress kalau fikir cara nak ubat dia, sebab tak ada doktor yang mudah didekati =)

Manis...

Tapi alhamdulillah. Ada benda yang Allah nak tegur diri ini kot dengan cara Dia 'sakit'kan laptopku.. Sejak laptop sakit, bilik2 komputer di kampus menjadi bilik keduaku. =) Surau di kampus menjadi tempat tumpah air mataku. =) Kadang-kadang, library menjadi rumah keduaku. =) Alhamdulillah atas segalanya.. =) Hehe. Mula-mula agak sedih dan stress, lagi2 bila Tahun ke3, keperluan kepada laptop untuk tujuan akademik menjadi lebih besar dari sebelum2nya...


Menangisi ujian vs. menginsafi nikmat...

=) Alhamdulillah, Allah izin untuk kurasa nikmat di balik ujian kesakitan laptopku.. Kadang bila berjalan seorang diri ke library, mengatur langkah seorang diri ke uni..dan duduk di depan laptop, di dalam bilik yang kadang2 ada orang, kadang2 hanya kita penghuni tunggal.. banyak mengajar ku tentang erti syukur... Syukur sebab Allah masih bagi keupayaan untuk kaki berjalan ke library, berjalan ke uni.. Syukur sebab Allah atur kehidupanku dgn lebih teratur, siang buat kerja, malam untuk rehat (sebab hanya siang boleh keluar , kalau malam takut/tak berani untuk berjalan sorang2 ke library.. kalau dari uni, boleh balik paling lewat pukul 8, uni hanya +-5 minit dari rumah).

Ujian lagi..

Allah uji sikit dengan sakit neck, lower abdomen / back ---> kaki. Ada sekali terpaksa berjalan henti2 untuk sampai ke uni dan naik tangga ke tingkat dua untuk hantar satu esaimen di pejabat education department. Masa tu rasa cukup insaf dengan nikmat sihat yang sebelum ni tidak dihargai seperti saat itu. Alhamdulillah Allah bagi rasa seperti orang kurang upaya, walaupun sementara tapi bermakna.

Teringat pesan seorang guruku "Jaga kesihatan. Itu pun tanda syukur kita pada Allah. Kesihatan juga amanah Allah juga. Ingat tu. " Begitulah lebih kurang nasihat guru Bahasa Inggerisku di Kolej Islam dulu, di FB.

Nikmat masa...

Allah bagi kita sakit, untuk kita insaf dengan nikmat sihat..
Allah bagi kita susah, untuk kita ingat nikmat senang..
Allah bagi kita sibuk, untuk bagi kita hargai masa yang lapang..

Kadang, manusia perlu bersendirian untuk menginsafi diri.. Kalau betul2 hati kita Allah sentuh , air mata boleh saja jatuh tanpa kita sedar.. =) Banyak masa dan ruang yang ada untuk kita kutip REDHA Allah...

Bila melangkah untuk buat sesuatu yang baik, jangan lupa kita niatkan supaya Allah redha setiap satu langkah yang kita atur..Moga satu per satu langkah diiringi satu pahala.. dan moga langkah kita itu mendekatkan kita ke Syurga Allah..

Indah.. bila membayangkan para Malaikat meneduhi langkah2 kita , doa-doa makhluk Allah di sekeliling kita, di langit, di bumi, di lautan, mengiringi kita...Sambil2, kita sendiri boleh memaknakan lagi langkah yang diatur dengan menyebut2 Allah, mengulangi hafalan al-quran, mendoakan ibu bapa dan keluarga, umat Islam, guru2, sahabat2 dan semua muslimin.. Sehingga kita rasa perjalanan yang jauh menjadi singkat, kerana kita asyik dengan mengingat Allah dan mendoakan yang baik-baik..

Sama-sama doakan supaya Allah yang Maha Lembut, terus murah dengan kelembutan yang dihembuskan ke dalam hati-hati kita semua.. Bila hati kita lembut, insyaAllah mudah untuk menangis kerana Allah.. rasa lebih bersyukur, insaf dengan kekurangan.. dan memandang sesuatu yang mungkin dianggap kecil sebagai nikmat yang sangat besar hadiah daripada Allah... sebab kita memang tak mampu nak mewujudkan sesuatu itu dgn sendiri, melainkan Allah yg bagi..walaupun ianya sekecil-kecil nikmat..

Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah..

Moga Allah ampunkan dosa-dosa kita dan jadikan kita HAMBA-NYA yang sentiasa bercita-cita untuk lebih dekat pada-Nya. Ameen..

Terima kasih Allah atas PERJALANAN ini =)

p/s 1: Alhamdulillah, ku anggap rezeki tahun ini. Dapat hadiah iPod semasa birthday ke 23. Banyak jasa dia, Terutama untuk check email, baca attachment di email, skype and paltalk, serta FB. Dan banyak applications yang best : Mathurat, iQuran, Doa2, Period Log dll. May Allah bless.

p/s 2: Thank you my dear friend Ira for being my emergency unit. =D

p/s 3: Jom jadi muslim yang sihat.. Jaga postur badan, jangan angkat benda terlalu berat, buat kerja slow2 dan hati-hati...dan..rajin2 minum susu. Sayangi tulang anda. =) (3 tahun di Uk, baru dua kali ke Medical Practice. Alhamdulillah). =)

Realiti dalam mimpi

Kelihatan semua kalut

Berlari mendaki bukit

Menuju ke bilik-bilik kediaman

Yang persis asrama

Kuturut serta berlari2 anak

Menuju Ke arah bangunan di atas bukit

STOP!!!

Sepasukan askar

Lengkap berseragam dan bersenjata

Kami di arah untuk tidak berlari- lari

Jika tidak

Tembakan akan dilepaskan

Takut

Hanya mengharap pada Allah.

Ku terbangun

Hampir Subuh

Mimpi masih segar

Ketakutan masih bersisa

Namun yang pasti

Ketakutan yang dirasa hanyalah sedikit

Hanya 'al-khouf' yang sedikit

Belum lagi 'al-joo3'

Seperti yang dideritai oleh saudara-saudaraku

Di Palestine

Di Syria

Di Somalia

Dan mungkin di lain-lain tempat lagi...

Ya Allah, menangkan kami ke atas mereka yang zalim!

Al-khouf الخوف: ketakutan

Al-joo3 الجوع:kelaparan

Belajarlah dari duniamu

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim,
Salam 'alayk.

Sekadar berkongsi sesuatu yang menarik perhatian saya- Sekeping gambar yang penuh cerita dan pengajaran, insyaAllah. (bagi saya).

Gambar : Basikal yang menarik dan unik. Dikayuh oleh seorang lelaki (mungkin seorang ayah muda) di universiti saya.

Kagum. Mungkin dia bawa anak (atau mungkin anak-anak) dengan basikal ini.
Semangat. Rasanya beliau seorang pelajar di uni ni. Atau mungkin tutor? Allah knows.
Oh, para pensyarah di sini, ramai yang berbasikal datang uni. Dengan baju formal / kot . =) Tidak pernah dilihat di negara ku. Menarik. =)

Pengajaran:

- Kegigihan
- Status bukanlah material, dan material bukanlah status
- Terkenang waktu dahulu, ayah sangat gigih menghantar dan mengambil anak-anak dari sekolah, dengan motor. =) May Allah bless my Ayah. Allahumma ameen.. =)

Nota kaki:

Belajarlah dari duniamu sekelilingmu. Mereka adalah guru. =)

nfes

St Augustine House

040412

~85 days to go~